Quite a bad thing has happened

That's stumpsWell there I was, ambling along quite nicely and feeling optimistic about finally finishing one of these ill-conceived projects, when I had a bit of an accident. Drawing and painting is pretty much off the agenda for me now, so the project must end. I’m still feeling pretty traumatised about it and don’t really want to go into details, but let’s just say I’ve learned not to double fist pump in celebration after successfully fitting a ceiling fan. Anyway, typing with your nose is a nightmare so I’ll keep this brief.

This project was supposed to have a big finale – a video in which I laid out all 260 A4 portraits in a 20 x 13 grid to reveal the final portrait:

Henri Matisse

Henri Matisse, born 31 December 1869.  He was known as the master of colour, so it seemed fitting to piece together such a collage. Perhaps you guessed what I was doing with all those strange lines that kept appearing in the backgrounds. I even hinted at the 20 x 13 grid idea in the banner:

cropped banner

See, it was clever. At least one of you might have said ‘Ooh.’

Although this decision has been taken out of my hands, so to speak, I have to admit that I found portraiture a total pain in the arse. I don’t know why I thought I would enjoy it, or that it would be easier than previous projects. My excitement about it had evaporated by the middle of January, and artistically I think it had almost no merit whatsoever. I do these things because I think I should be concentrating my abilities somehow, but those abilities always fall short of what I expect. I used to think it was a given that by not living a conventional life I was bound to become some sort of mad creative genius, and that this would be compensation of sorts. Instead I learned, again, that putting yourself under time constraints might force you to be productive, but it rarely yields a quality result. When you’re looking at a portrait and thinking ‘That’ll have to do because I’ve run out of time’, you’re doing the wrong thing for the wrong reasons. So, that’s it. And if I ever say that I’m planning a year long project again, please – somebody – talk me out of it.


Graham Nunn will return in Octopussy.


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